I am away. From everyone. Including myself. I feel like curling myself and sleep in through all these.
So help me, God.
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I was thinking that this will be my last autumn on this part of the world. It feels sad and I know that I’ll miss the Japanese maple which for me symbolizes resilience, honor and the perennial change of seasons.
Such is life. I had it bad, but not as bad as others went through or are still going through. But God lifts me up each time. Yet, I am an ungrateful son. I have always taken my blessings for granted. It is so much easier than asking for more.
I stood in front of the tree. I watched the air sway the leaves and peeled them off their branches.
I am scared. The word is ambivalent. I am so nervous of starting another life. My life here is too comfortable, but I am not contented. Still, I feel afraid of what’s going to happen next.
I pray for wisdom and faith.
M A P L E
Back from New York. I praise and thank the LORD, and everyone who prayed, for His blessings. It was a fruitful visit and I hope to be back for good by June of next year. I met a lot of wonderful people, ate good food and enjoyed the beauty of the city. Here are the shots I took before I left. God is good all the time. We may never understand His ways, but He gives us evidence that everything will come to fruition in His time.
Happy thanksgiving!
Photography
Posting some of the things I have seen this week. There are so many good photographers out there and I feel envious of their skill. Yet, I am glad I started learning because this hobby is so therapeutic spiritually. It takes me to the minutest of creation- beautiful things taken for granted. One year ago, I bought my first DSLR out of impulse. As I’ve written here, I was so depressed that time owing to lack of hospital invites. I never realized that I would cherish “my” camera. Yes, it was expensive, but the joys I have savored are well worth the money. Last night, I was listening to Sara Groves’ version of “Come Thou Fount” and I remembered listening to the same song over and again last year. God has brought me to this time and I am really grateful. I am off to New York for 2 hospital interviews by first week of November. Honestly, I feel edgy and scared, but I will raise my “Ebenezer” knowing that He never fails. I sure am good with griping and sinning but He loves me all the way still. I am so excited to shoot autumn in New York. harharharhar. To God Be The Glory!
