I am away. From everyone. Including myself. I feel like curling myself and sleep in through all these.

So help me, God.

I was thinking that this will be my last autumn on this part of the world. It feels sad and I know that I’ll miss the Japanese maple which for me symbolizes resilience, honor and the perennial change of seasons.

Such is life. I had it bad, but not as bad as others went through or are still going through. But God lifts me up each time. Yet, I am an ungrateful son. I have always taken my blessings for granted. It is so much easier than asking for more.

I stood in front of the tree. I watched the air sway the leaves and peeled them off their branches.

I am scared. The word is ambivalent. I am so nervous of starting another life. My life here is too comfortable, but I am not contented. Still, I feel afraid of what’s going to happen next.

I pray for wisdom and faith.

Back from New York. I praise and thank the LORD, and everyone who prayed, for His blessings. It was a fruitful visit and I hope to be back for good by June of next year. I met a lot of wonderful people, ate good food and enjoyed the beauty of the city. Here are the shots I took before I left. God is good all the time. We may never understand His ways, but He gives us evidence that everything will come to fruition in His time.

Happy thanksgiving!

Help me, LORD. I am on my knees.